“Sometimes the greatest change lies in allowing us to be as we are meant to be.”
In a world where everything revolves around self-optimization, perhaps the most profound transformation happens quietly, within, when we accept ourselves as we are. When we allow our “becoming” to be as it is. When we stop trying to “fix” or “improve” ourselves. But instead, we begin to understand that nothing about ourselves is wrong, even if we feel the pain of being broken inside.
To to deal with pain
Painful phases and aspects of our lives tend to frighten us – we fear them and don’t want to look too closely. We just want them to be over quickly. And even when they’re over, we’re reluctant to return, either inwardly through our memories or outwardly to the places where they happened. Or we do return, but we’re inwardly disconnected, not quite “there” – something inside us is cut off. The horror or pain doesn’t completely let go of us, and sometimes we pass the experience on to those close to us. This is called transgenerational transmission of trauma: “something is embedded” in our very being, and we carry it within us.
My work – what happens in process?
I will accompany you there – to the wounds, the abysses and wreckage within us. To the places hidden and buried deep within our souls, beneath mountains of painful experiences and memories. The places within us that we are ashamed of because we feel flawed, inadequate, insufficient, broken, and simply wrong. Sometimes it isn’t consciously present, but on some level, the energy of “I am wrong” is at work. We will examine these uncomfortable things closely, tracking them down to the smallest detail, or as far as our interest will take us. We will learn the map of grief, loss, pain, trauma, anger, blockage – whatever we wish to explore in order to grow beyond it.
Mapping of pain
Together we embark on a search for the healing tendencies and currents within us – even if it’s just a gentle breeze guiding us. We try to look closely! We examine the pain and learn about its nature – its components, its scent, its fibers, and its structure. We familiarize ourselves with it and move through unfamiliar territory until it becomes familiar ground, something we no longer need to shy away from or fear. We learn the map of pain, and by that we also familiarize the healing sources within us: the springs, the powerful places, the subtle vibrations of life that support us. We may not feel them during the heights of pain or in the middle of an internal storm but they are always present – no matter we know about them and believe in them or not. The web of life carries us without us having to do or achieve anything in return. That’s why in English, we say “human beings” and not “human doings.”
Who I am?
I have a natural curiosity for places and moments in life where things get a little out of hand and lose their color. I’m interested in the things people tend not to talk about: the taboos, the painful birth, discontent in life, open despair, deep anxieties—what lies beneath? Only pain and horror? And after the horror?
I’ve walked this path in life again and again. I know the feeling of being weary of life. It’s a familiar route that I still sometimes visit—the only difference is: I don’t stay in there for too long, I know the turns that lead me out. I know that behind the unpleasantness lies a hidden door to treasures and insights. Knowing this, doesn’t make it easier to discover the door, the cellar, any kind of block…
How do we deal with this? How do we allow our soul, our intuition, and life itself to work for us through those difficult moments and let those moments be necessary milestones for our growth and internal process?
PEACE
…doesn’t arise from calming down our difficult states of beings
– like despair, anxiety or restlessness;
but by entrusting those qualities to life.
Allowing life to whirl them around
and move them into places within ourselves
where they nourish our growth
and unfold their hidden potential
for our journey towards wholeness.
Sometimes when things are falling apart, they may actually be falling into place.
Is this process the right kind of support for me?
I’m with you on your journey to the healing springs within you!
